Slowly I heal…

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I rejoice!  I am having an alright day.  Slowly I heal.

My day has been full of stress.  My delusions are helping an evil person to be better.  It is dangerous and stressful.  I rejoice however for my subconscious is calm.  I am painting pastel paintings as I think of my subconscious.  Listening to Chopin for most of the morning helped to calm me.  This is the first time that I have used music as a coping mechanism.  It worked wonders.  I felt light and joyful as did my subconscious.  Now I have to see if painting with my subconscious in mind will make my delusions worse.  Earlier my delusions had been in a turmoil but it may have been the stress of one of my daughters moving out or the way I communicated with my subconscious.  Now I simply painted and drew.  Hopefully that’s alright.  I didn’t go for a walk because my delusions were doing important work.  But I have to go walking soon.  I had a bad day a few days ago and I apologize again to my daughter.  She recommended I use some coping mechanisms.  Therefore I listened to Chopin today.  There’s something about the piano that soothes my soul.  Slowly I heal!  Never stop fighting!


Moonlight and Waves Pastel Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to release her Moonight and Waves pastel painting.  My delusions are relatively calm although I am still stressed.  I listen to Chopin and slowly I heal.  Enjoy!

The white moon and the surrounding white clouds catch the viewer’s eye.  As does the reflection on the dark grey sea.  The line of waves show where blue and purple waves start as they crash onto the shore.  The white contrasts well with the blue and purple of the waves.

My delusions have calmed down.  My psychic mother was helping me but then was affected by Bad Dominants.  All the good and I fight back against them.  There is even hexing.  But I survive trusting in God and good people.  I believe in the good in people.  I listen to Chopin and the music carries me away as if it was trickling rain.  An uplifting of spirits.  My psychiatrist hasn’t changed my medication since my delusions have calmed down.  I have taken two weeks off of painting to communicate with my subconscious.  I will paint that way tomorrow probably.  Now I enjoy a relatively calm state.  I hesitate to paint with my subconscious in mind.  It may cause turmoil again.  I have stopped all activity, even walking.  Hoping that things would calm down.  Although I am still functional and able to run errands.  I trust in Good Dominants, God and good people.  Slowly I heal.

This is my second time painting moonlight with pastels.  It is a challenge and I will slowly get better at it.  I am a bit philisophical now.  Water has always calmed me.  I have been by the sea and found it relaxing.  Hopefully my painting conveys some of the seas calming effect.


Moonlight Pastel Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to release her Moonlight pastel painting.  It is the first try on reflected moonlight.  I am having extreme anxiety.  Slowly I heal.  The painting is helping.

The moon attracts the viewer’s eye immediately.  The reflected white on the blue water is peaceful.  The black silhouette of a tree and it’s black reflection also capture the viewer’s attention.

This painting was done over a couple of days.  I was suffering from extreme anxiety and the painting helped to soothe that anxiety.  I am calmer now.  God and good people have helped.  I have the help of delusional characters that are loved ones.  It is a time of joy and a time of fear.  Slowly I heal.

I am attempting to paint from my imagination sometimes.  It takes practice!  I love moonlight reflected in water and will do more.

The moon shimmers well.  I blended white and light grey on a blended blue background.  The reflection of the moon shimmers well.  The clouds, however, need better detail.  The black silhouette of the tree and it’s reflection contrast well with the blue of the lake.



Hummingbird via Penmanship.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to release her first Hummingbird via Penmanship.  It was painted at a time of extreme anxiety mixed with joy.  Enjoy!

The vibrant green, purple, pink and yellow of the hummingbird catch the viewers eye.  The black eye and beak contrast well.

I am experiencing anxiety.  My delusions involve children who are being saved.  Many children.  It’s as if I don’t have enough and have to spread my love to many.  With God’s help and the help of good people, the children are saved.  A hell horror and vampires are involved too.  Human sacrifice at dawn is a horror that exists!  May God help us all.  Slowly I heal.  My delusions are better now in that I have a Lesser God helping me directly while a Good Dominant and God battle the worst evil.

This drawing was done with a Sharpie pen, fine point.  The outline and stippling were done with the pen as well as the beak and feet.  The rest is watercolour paint.  I did the stippling before painting and then as a finalizing touch.  I’m quite pleased with the effect.


Blue N White Wave Practice Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to show her Blue n White Wave practice pastel painting.  It was painted at a time of extreme stress.  Slowly I heal.

The black of the wave silhouettes well against the white of the wave.  The pale blue of the wave blends in with the darker blue background.

This was painted on A Day.  A day of stress.  I patiently listen to my delusions and try to figure out what is wrong.  Sometimes I am swept away but my family bring me back to reality.  So do my pets.  Thank God for my family and pets!  Thank you, God.

I painted this from a reference painting.  I painted the white first, then the black and finally the blue around them.  I didn’t blend the black with the blue but left it stark against the white.  I did blend the white with the blue and it silhouettes well against the darker blue background.  The sort of looks like a wave.  I need more practice.  Enjoy!


Happy 4th of July!

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Miriam’s Art says Happy 4th of July to all her American friends!  Good company and safe travels!  Enjoy!

I have had a depressing afternoon.  I am tired and am trying to rest but my mood is down.  I could have listened to music I realise now but didn’t think of it.  I have started to listen to Chopin.  Love the piano on it.  Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day.  Never stop fighting!

Mountain Scene with Flowers Pastel Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to release her Mountain Scene with Flowers.  She battles constantly with inner voices.  Slowly she heals.

The blue of the reflected sky on the mountain lake attracts the eye of the viewer.  It is immediately drawn to the blue sky.  Then the white of the mountains in sunlight captures our view as we look at the mountains.  Finally, the beige white of the rocks in the foreground draw our eye as does the red of the mountain flower that I love.  It is also an arctic flower.  Mountain Scene with Flowers.

I battle with my inner voices, my delusions.  We are fighting a great evil and bad men.  It causes stress as I fear for even children.  But they are delusions.  I try to understand what they are saying to me.  This is a challenge and I must calm my fears to try to understand.  Slowly I heal.

This painting was a challenge.  The mountains worked out well, however, the cliffs were a bit of a challenge and I need more practice with that.  The clouds were a challenge but worked out well.  The red flowers were easy but the green around them was a challenge.  Slowly I get better.

This landscape holds a special place in my heart.  The flower is an alpine flower as well as an arctic flower.  I studied it in the Arctic as a research assistant.  Mountains always hold a special place in my heart.  I have hiked them.  Sadly my knees are now so bad that I could only do day hikes.  I can no longer carry a heavy pack.  Enjoy your life while you can!  You never know what will happen and things you loved to do may be out of your grasp.  Life has hard lessons at times.


Old Man Watercolor Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to release her Old Man watercolour painting.  It was done at a time of extreme anxiety.  Slowly I heal.

The blue stare and its reflections draw the viewers eyes immediately.  The dark brown hair and beard contrast well against the beige skin.

This was done at a time of extreme anxiety due to the delusions in my mind.

Painting a face is easier than I had imagined.  I didn’t have the time to put on the finishing touches.  I painted the eye without frisket and am quite pleased with it.


Mountain Scene WIP Pastel Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to show her Mountain Scene WIP pastel painting.  Happy Canada Day Everyone.  Safe Travels!  Enjoy!

The blue of the sky immediately attracts the viewer’s eye.  It is reflected in the mountain pond.  The red of the mountain flowers draw the eye to the foreground.  A Work In Progress (WIP).

I have been struggling with my delusions as some of you know.  Today is a Day.  Times of turmoil but I get help from good people in my mind.  I have been distracted but painting has helped.  Please forgive me for the quality of my posts.  Distracted, to say the least.

Happy Canada Day.  My family is home.  Safe and sound.  We had a death in the family and some were away for the funeral.  They got home just in time for the long weekend.  Take care and love your family.  Today is here.  Yesterday is forgotten and tomorrow is not sure!

Enjoy.  Never stop fighting!