Kitten Pastel Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to release her Kitten pastel painting.  It was painted at a time of extreme anxiety.  Slowly I heal.

The white reflection in the kitten’s black eyes immediately draws the viewers attention.  The bright white, beige and yellow fur draw the eye in further.  The cute pink button nose also attracts the eye.  The silhouetted computer screen and kitten’s body are in the background.

I speak of love today.  The love of God and a good dominant lover.  They both protect me from evil.  The Evil One is dead and in hell but still attacks people in my mind.  It is my belief in God and in the good that keeps me stable and decreases my fear.

I spoke to my daughter and my last post upset her.  She fears that my delusions are taking over my life again.  The fantasies calmed down after I had talked to her.  I talked to my psychiatrist and he said to wait until I talk to my psychologist.  I have a meeting tomorrow.  The problem is that I am maxed out on my medication and I’d have to completely change my medication to increase my dose, which might make things worse.  My psychiatrist said if things got really bad to come in immediately.  But my fantasies have calmed down and are not as in control of my life.  Miriam is in control.

I started reading The Red Book by C. G. Jung.  It talked of his fantasies and how he spoke to his fantasies.  My psychologist recommended it to me.  Jung spoke to his fantasies throughout his career and that is how he developed modern day thought on dream archetypes.  He is a great psychologist and had fantasies just like me.  So I am not strange or that ill.  It has happened to other people.  I am still reading the book and trying to communicate with my subconscious.

My psychiatrist said that stress may be affecting my paranoia.  My daughter is moving out, my roof needs to be fixed and we had a death in the family.  However, I am also trying to connect with my subconscious.  She is calm I think but my fantasies are under a lot of stress.  I’m not sure what is causing the stress.  I will keep you posted.  Slowly I heal.

This painting was a challenge.  It is the first time that I paint the shadow of something on black paper.  The shadow of the computer and the kitten’s body came out quite well.  I painted it, rendered it and then erased to leave a smudge of pastel.  It worked out quite well I think.

Enjoy!

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Kitten Eye Pastel Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to release her Kitten Eye pastel painting.  This painting was done at a time of relative calm.  The eye was the focus.

The blue purple of the eye with it’s reflection immediately draws the eye of the viewer.  The reflection is contrasted beautifully by the dark purple of the eye.  The blue of the eye contrasts well with the dark purple and the black shadow.   The blue grey background is reflected in the eye as well.  The fur is secondary in the painting although the cute kitten nose attracts the eye as well.

I finished this painting earlier in the week during a time of relative calm.  I was beginning to realize that many of my fears were in my mind.  It was my mind making them real and a threat.  On Thursday however I had a difficult day but I had just finished most of this painting.  It was doubly difficult because I did not have art to fall back on as a coping mechanism since I hadn’t started anything new!  I was at a loss.

The technique of the eye was challenging in this painting.  It even has a reflection of a cat in a window!  Luckily the eye was large enough that I could get that detail in.  The fur could have been done better.  I have just realized that if I put down a lighter color then add the darker fur color on top then it has more depth.  The shadows of the nose could have been blended more but the shadow had to be defined too.  The background was too blue and I had to add grey to make it look better.  This is the last of close up eyes for a while.  I wanted to develop my technique.  Now it’s time to move on.

As usual this painting is smaller since it is only of the eye.  It would be considered a pet portrait.  To order use the 8×10″ print and comment in the comments that you wish the Kitten Eye painting.

Enjoy!