Cream Water Droplet WIP.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to share her Cream Water Droplet Work In Progress pastel painting.  She is painting less.  Is this a good sign?  Slowly she heals.

This is a complicated water droplet painting.  It has many water droplets in focus and then the background has even more blurred.  The technique of blurring them will be interesting.  There is a slight blue hue to the main water droplet as you can see.  Hopefully there is not too many droplets in this one.  I’ll see.

This painting was started at a time of low anxiety.  It is a time of joy!  I am walking more so I have less time to paint.  The weather is beautiful and nature has always been a source of joy.  In addition I am reading more.  I enjoy romances.  All of this combined means that I am painting less.  This may signify that I don’t need to paint as much.  My anxiety is so much less now.  The painting however still soothes my soul.  I am doing more in my home and getting out more.  For example there is an Author Meet and Greet at my library today that I am going to.  I am actually going to mingle with the public!  With people that I don’t know.  Wish me luck!  Slowly I heal.

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Pearls of Wisdom.

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Miriam reflects on her own personal pearls of wisdom.  Sometimes the intimate stuff should remain with you and not be shared.  These are called pearls of wisdom.  That only you know about.  Slowly I heal.

I was faced with the dilemma of how much to tell a friend about my illness.  My counselor recommended that I keep the pearls of wisdom to myself.  It was enough that my friend know that I had been abused and that I had anxiety but the rest I could keep to myself.  She didn’t have to know the nitty-gritty details.  Those I could keep to myself.  It’s the same with this blog.  I have to remember that I have pearls of wisdom that I should keep to myself.  But some things I have shared already.  It is also possible to post about things in general.  Like how it takes courage to face your anxiety.  You don’t have to go into all the details.  But I do try to be honest in my writing.  And it has helped to share.  Thank you for being there.  xx  🙂

#ME TOO

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You may well ask what #ME TOO means.  It’s breaking the silence about sexual abuse and showing you that it’s more prevalent than you think.  An American film producer has been exposed as having abused women.  He’s not the first celebrity in the news who has done this.  People are posting #ME TOO on social media to show that they too have been sexually abused.  Sexual abuse is more prevalent than you think.  Instead of saying that women are raped one should say that men rape women.  Put emphasis on the culprit rather than the victim.  However even women can be sexual abusers.

But enough of my rant.  Back to my healing journey.

I have had great anxiety in my life.  In 2013 it became a lot worse.  My fight or flight mechanism is totally out of whack because of the fear I felt when I was a child and was abused.  My fear was that great.  Now my body has decided that I need to heal from that and I had blocked it all out for a long time.  I realize now that my abuser must have threatened me for me to fear so much.  I even feared for my loved ones. So my abuser might have threatened them too.  It’s terrible what abuse does to an individual.  Years, no decades later a problem arises.  Be kind to one another.  How can I say that and get people to do it?  Don’t force people and don’t harm them.  Walk in harmony with your fellow man.  Peace.

Crouching Leopard Pastel Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to release her Crouching Leopard pastel painting.  It was a joy to paint this magnificent creature.  Enjoy!

The stare of the leopard immediately catches the attention of the viewer.  The golden fur interlaced with black dots is magnificent.  The white of the mussel contrasts well with the golden fur.  The value on the muscles creates depth.  The light golden high lighted areas of the leopard contrast well with the shadows.  The shadows creates a three dimensional illusion of form.  The pale yellow background contrasts well with the golden hue of the leopard and the dark hue of the branch that it is sitting on.

I painted the crouching leopard with a feeling of joy.  Here was something that I understood well.  The muscles of a big cat.

The dark corners of the background is a new technique for me and works quite well.  It gives the two dimensional painting an illusion of depth.  I painted the leopard by sections so that the amount of black dots didn’t overwhelm me.

This is an approximately 12×18″ painting.  It is available for sale on my website http://www.miriamsart.com under the Shop button.  Then click on Portfolio.  It can be bought unframed or framed.  Delivery charges are additional.  Enjoy!

Framed Elephant Watercolor.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to show you her matting and framing abilities.  Enjoy!

Here I have framed an elephant watercolor.  It’s quite easy to matte and frame.  I have the choice of black, white, grey or a green matte.  It all depends on the frame.  I usually by a dark frame although you can get brown, white or even blue frames.  The matte color has to take into consideration the color of the frame.  I went to Michaels to buy this 16×20″ frame.  It cost about $100.00 CAD.  The matte I think is about $15.00 CAD for a large sheet.  It takes a special matte cutter to give you the nice bevel cut.  It’s hard on the back.  I framed two paintings today.  With pastel paintings you have to leave a gap between the painting and the matte because the pastel chalk tends to fall and may accumulate on your glass if you don’t matte it properly.  Enjoy!

World Mental Health Day and my healing journey.

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It is World Mental Health Day.  What can I say?  Talk about your illness to someone.  And listen!  Slowly I heal.

Today was a difficult day.  Motherly advice was not taken well and another daughter doesn’t want to talk about it!  I was anxious.  Was it something I said?  Such simple problems in a relatively uncomplicated life and yet they are extremely important to me.  My children are my number one priority.  They are the meaning of my life.  As a parent one must sometimes say things that are hard to hear.  But I am more aware and brave now to say things.  And it came time for that this weekend.  I apologized to them.  I’m not sure that it was appreciated!  So it made me anxious.  Disrupted my whole day.  They mean so much to me.  What can I say.  Time will heal all disaccord.  Stay calm!  And wait.

I should have gone for a walk today but I was distracted by my thoughts for my daughters.  So I didn’t.  To calm down I watched television.  Then I decided to look into a couple of important things that I have put off.  So my time was well spent.  I almost ruined my painting this morning.  I just was too distracted.  And I couldn’t read my romance.  I was too distracted.  I read both my healing books though although I didn’t get very far.

I am to nurture my inner child.  Apparently we all have one no matter our age.  I need to show her compassion and understanding.  The suggestion to watch children was so that I remember just how innocent they are and how dependent they are on their mothers or fathers.  I was a child.  And innocent.  It was.  not.  my.  fault.  This I have to remember.

I also read about mistaken beliefs and affirmations that one can make to counter them.  An example of one mistaken belief is that I will never amount to anything.  The affirmation to counter this is that I have already amounted to a lot and am still learning.  I stay forever young as I learn things each day.  I am worthy of praise.  I have done much.

But enough.  World Mental Health Day.  One should break the silence and reach out to a friend, a family member, an associate or maybe a priest.  Talk about what is happening to you.  Don’t just say that you are fine, smile and walk away.  Be honest about your pain.  Even if it’s on an anonymous blog that you haven’t shown any of your friends yet!  Speak of your pain and be free!  And if you know of someone with mental health issues then listen closely.  Wait and ask again if they are fine.  Say really are you OK? and then wait and  LISTEN.  We are all engrossed in our every day life that we sometimes don’t realize the pain or the agony of the one saying that they are fine.  Look deeper and see the true self…see the soul of the individual.  And ask again, How are you?

Crouching Leopard WIP and my healing journey.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to show her Crouching Leopard WIP pastel painting.  She is also doing so much more recently and has not had time to post.  Slowly she heals but has to take a day to rest.

The stare of the crouching cougar draws you immediately to the painting.  You can see the way I do the background…it isn’t blended in smoothly yet.  And you can see that I am doing the crouching leopard in sections.  The black dots would have been too much but if I do it section by section it is easier.

Lately I have been doing too much.  Usually I either walk or run an errand in one day.  Never both.  Recently I have done doing both.  And I have been walking for five days this week.  So I’ve either done too much or the physical exercise is affecting my medication.  I was very tired yesterday and got overly anxious.  And I had taken my medication as prescribed.  So today I am not walking.  And I won’t see my friend next week probably.  Although I do have Thanksgiving supper planned.  Hopefully that won’t be too stressful.  So I have forgotten to nurture me.  Today I take a day off.  I might go out for a mocha latte.  That is how I treat myself.  Or I just might have hot tea with milk!  I am even too tired to go out.  This has taught me that I have to do things slowly and not too much in a week.  Slowly I heal.

I have tried to paint more this week.  And not just read.  Reading tires me more than painting does.  Painting is soothing to the soul.  This painting should be done by the end of next week.  I love the look in the leopard’s eyes.  And I love the color of the leopard.  Enjoy!

Blue Water Droplet Pastel Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to release her Blue Water Droplet pastel painting.  It was a relief to paint such a simple thing.  Slowly she heals.

The reflected white of the water droplet immediately attracts the viewer’s eye.  The dark blue and black of the water droplet contrast well with the reflected white.  The white and black tufts of the plant bring a further dimension to the painting.  The blue and dark blue background contrast well with the water droplet itself.

After the detailed painting of the clouds, this water droplet was a joy to paint.  It was quickly and simply done. Painting it brought all the healing that my painting had previously given me.  It was a joy.

Water droplets intrigue me.  That is why I have started painting them.  Painting the reflected surface is always a challenge.  I think I did well.  The white reflection defines the water droplet.

This is a 12×18″ painting.  It is available for sale.  Pricing can be found under the Shop Now option on my website under Portfolio (at the top of the page).  http://www.miriamsart.com

Enjoy!

A Review by Laura…

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Miriam’s Art is happy to post a review of her dog pet portrait!

Miriam, I wanted to write to say thank you for the beautiful portraits you did of my dog Cash.  You really captured his personality in your work, particularly the eyes I find look so like his own.  I love the colours that you used and the pastels give a softness to the portraits that also speaks to Cash’s personality.  I have hung the portrait with pride and it is one of the first things I ask people to look at when they come over because it is so special to me.

Thank you again, I will cherish your work for years to come.

Laura

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Cougar and My Healing Journey.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to release her Cougar pastel painting.  In addition she shows her Seagulls and Clouds pastel painting.  She also talks of her healing journey.  Enjoy!

I am sorry I didn’t post on Saturday.  My daughter had to borrow my computer for the weekend!  I have it back now.  Yahoo!

The goldish brown cougar magnificently perches on a branch.  Will he spring towards the viewer.  No one knows!

I also finished the cloud painting that I was having so much trouble with.

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As you know a Facebook post inspired me to try this.  However I could not use the technique showed in the post.  I don’t know where that man obtained his eraser but it doesn’t exist in my town.  So I tried to use white pastel to highlight the clouds.  Then for more contrast I used black.  This is my first attempt at clouds.  The birds are done with acrylic paints and they give depth to the painting.

I have been reading more … that is romance fiction.  This has made me more aware of my surroundings.  I used to paint and not really consciously think of my surroundings and my illness.  I healed at times but I didn’t really think about it all the time.  Now I am more aware and can be more critical.  In addition my children and my home were enough to keep me happy.  Now I am reaching out to a good friend.  The circle of support around me expands.

I heard of a meditation technique today.  One should sit or lay down in a comfortable position.  Then the individual should take many deep breaths and concentrate on the breathing.  Do you feel the pulse.  Then they should concentrate on where there body meets the chair or couch and concentrate on that part of their body.  All the while breathing deeply.  Then one should expand one’s thoughts and think of the room that they are in.  Concentrate.  Then think of the house that you are in.  Concentrate.  Then think of looking down at your house from above.  Then think of being in the sky and looking down at your house.  Then think of being in space and looking down at your hemisphere.  Think of looking down at yourself.  Breath deeply.  Then think of being above your house and looking down.  Then think of being in the room and looking down.  Then think of the parts of your body touching the chair.  Then 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 open your eyes.  And breath.

This meditation technique takes you out of the moment and out of your body.  Where you can think of other things than what is bothering you.  You are free of your body for a moment.