Negative Beliefs and Positive Affirmations.

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I have been working on many negative beliefs that I have trying to counteract them with positive affirmations.  Slowly I heal.

We all have negative beliefs.  Some stem from the way we were brought up and could be our parents’ beliefs.  But some of mine stem from the abuse I went through as a child.  These negative beliefs create anxiety too.  To counter act negative beliefs positive affirmations can be used.  But also statements like the following:

  1. This isn’t always true.
  2. This doesn’t look at the whole picture.
  3. This doesn’t promote healing or a well being.
  4. This thought comes from my abuse or from my upbringing or from a negative experience in life.

Some negative beliefs we feel strongly and frequently and others we believe very strongly.  Some examples of negative beliefs are:

  1.  It’s a dangerous world out there.
  2.  I am ugly.
  3.  I am stupid.
  4.  I have to be perfect.
  5.  I feel powerless or helpless.

I have been using the Anxiety & Phobia Workbook by Edmund J Bourne (page 222; see the resources tap on my website and he has helped me to write down some positive affirmations to counteract the negative beliefs that I have.  Some of these positive affirmations are:

  1. I am a good person and have done much good.
  2. It’s alright to make mistakes.  You’re not perfect and only human.
  3. You are a beautiful survivor.
  4. You are strong.

To be honest I have 40 negative beliefs that I have to actively work on.  I plan to type out the positive affirmations that I have come up with.  Then I plan to incorporate them into my life two per week.  I will look in the mirror every morning for a week and say the two positive affirmations out loud.  Once I have gone through all of them, every morning I will pick one of them and say it out loud looking at myself in the mirror.  I think that it will work!  What do you think?  Any suggestions?


Autumn Leaves and Girl Watercolor WIP.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to show you her Autumn Leaves and Girl watercolor work in progress.  This painting will be much darker once finished.  It was painted at a time when I was hurrying due to anxiety.  Enjoy!

The eyes of the portrait grasp your attention immediately.  The groundwork of the leaves and the face are in place.  The dark background will be much darker once the painting is done.  The autumn leaves provide a contrast to the dark background.

I was hurrying when I was painting this watercolor.  I was more stressed than usual.  As you may know I am writing a book.  My first book.  It’s title is Martha.  Martha is at a stage of stress in her life and writing about it made me even more stressed.  Up to now writing the book has been therapeutic but since it’s a romantic suspense I had to put some suspense into the book.  Well it affected my anxiety.  It made me more stressed and I was hurrying to get this watercolor painted.  I caught myself and forced myself to calm down.

This is the first time that I am painting a face.  I lay the light colors down first and slowly added hues.  I will paint the leaves a much more reddish brown but the basic shapes are there.  I also tried a new technique.  I lay down a purplish black for the background and then painted over with brown.  It had an interesting effect.  We’ll see if I like this painting once it’s done.

My art hasn’t been my prime focus and I finally figured out why.  Usually I write in the morning, then I eat and feed the dogs.  After that I try to walk.  And then I usually would paint.  But since I am drinking a protein shake for breakfast I have been reading when I eat.  I’m not set up with a cup holder at my painting table.  This brings the book which I would usually pick up late morning into focus early in the morning.  So I am tempted to read instead of paint.  I have to force myself to paint now which has never happened before.  I have to make a conscious decision that it is now time to paint.  I don’t like this change to my habits.  Reading tires me and doesn’t soothe my soul the way that painting does.  I really don’t know what to do about this.  If you have any suggestions please comment below!

Have a good weekend.  We are expecting snow this afternoon.  I may have to shovel in the morning!  🙁

Taking a day off…Haha!


Taking a day off…Haha!

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I have been avoiding my healing exercises about negative thoughts and yes even about blocking.  I took the day off yesterday.  Slowly I heal.

Over 20 negative beliefs have shaped my life and now I have to figure out positive affirmations to help deal with them.  That is over 20 positive affirmations.  I am at a loss of how I can implement that many.  I am overwhelmed.  Plus when I block I do it subconsciously.  I sometimes don’t know what I fear because I don’t think of it consciously.  I just go about my life and do things.  But I’ve been blocking for a long time.

I work hard at healing for my children and especially for one.  She helped me to see how important it was.  However I have to apologize to you and to her.  Yesterday I took the day off.  I was walking in the mall and came across a flavored popcorn store.  I bought two types of popcorn, came home and rented a movie when I should have been working on my healing stuff.  I admit!  I played hooky and did not work.  But we all have to do that sometimes.  I watched The Hitman’s Bodyguard.  It was an action film and pretty good.  I even had a diet coke!  Just like at the movies!  Haha!

So please forgive me but today I feel a lot better.  Less anxious.  More light hearted.  Slowly I heal…

Poinsettia Watercolor Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to release her Poinsettia watercolor painting.  She was avoiding painting but forced herself to paint knowing that it soothed her.  Slowly she heals.

The vibrant red of the poinsettia immediately draw the eye to the flower.  What a festive color!  The darker blue of the background contrasts nicely with the red and adds depth.  The green and brown of branches also add depth.  As do the different shades of deep red.

I painted this when I didn’t want to paint.  Reading had taken over my life completely.  But I find that reading tires me and then my illness is worse.  So now I will force myself to paint.  Watercolor does not come naturally to me although I was tempted by it.  I may try some more next.  I enjoy watercolor and the effect.  However it is a challenge.

This is a simple 8×8″ painting.  It was quickly done.  I will be using this image to print Christmas cards.  I am contemplating painting individual cards in the future rather than printing images of my paintings.  It’s just an idea.  Enjoy!

My healing journey…

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I have come to a place in my healing journey that needs effort and attention.  I have to analyse when I block things out which takes time.  And I’m looking at negative beliefs from childhood.  Slowly I heal.

It’s hard for me to analyze when I block things out since I do it subconsciously.  With the help of a form I am recording the date and time, how long it was, what I was doing, who was with me and what they were doing, how I was feeling and what was disturbing me.  In addition since I block out my thoughts when I am anxious I rate my fear, I rate the belief in the negative thought, I rate my belief in a positive counter statement, and then I rate the subsequent belief in the initial negative thought and my emotion at that time.  With this I hope to better understand when I block things out and why.  But it’s taking a big effort because I don’t think about it when I’m doing it.  I am so used to doing it that it’s hard to pin point when I’m doing it.  If that makes sense.

I am also looking at negative beliefs.  I have about 30 of them.  For each one I am trying to see if it’s true all the time, if it’s promoting healing and whether it stems from childhood.  Some of my negative beliefs are due to a bad experience I had as a child.  Some are due to the way that I was brought up.  For each negative belief I am trying to formulate a positive affirmation that can help me stop believing in that negative belief.  This is work.  I plan to take the list of 30 affirmations and look at them every day trying to make them part of my thinking process.  Hopefully that will help.  But it’s work!  And it takes time!

Slowly I heal…

Blue Flowers Watercolor Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to exhibit her Blue Flowers watercolor painting.  Enjoy!

The dark blue of the flowers in the foreground draw the viewer’s eye immediately.  The flowers are in sharp contrast with the purple orange wash of the background.  The faint shadow of other blue flowers gives the painting depth.

I had planned to paint a baby’s change table with a rabbit and a rat.  However we found that the acrylic paint peeled of the surface.  The surface of the drawers was a shiny white.  I have no idea what material it was.  Does anyone know what kind of paint should be used on furniture?  I would really love to paint this scene for my daughter.

I am torn about what painting I will do next.  I have been thinking of Christmas.  I have also been thinking of watercolor.  I will do a quick sketch and then do a painting.  I will keep you posted.

Happy Thanksgiving USA!

Black Panther Pastel Painting.

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Miriam’s Art is pleased to exhibit a Black Panther pastel painting that she did in 2015.  Enjoy!

The yellow stare of the black panther immediately draws the viewer’s eye.  It contrasts well with the black fur of the panther.  The grayish tinge gives contour and value to the face and body of the panther.

This painting was done at a time of great stress.  I was battling inner demons.  The painting soothed my soul and subconsciously I was healing.

This is a 20 x 26″ painting available as framed or unframed.  Please see the Shop Now and Portraits buttons on my website at  Enjoy!

My healing journey…

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Miriam speaks of her healing journey.  It is winter now.  New everyday worries increasing her anxiety.  With courage, slowly she heals.

I had thought not to post today.  I feel that I haven’t had anything worth saying but then thought of all of my followers.  I am facing anxiety in a more conscious way now.  I read a book that touched me in a negative way.  My whole routine is in jeopardy.  My coping mechanisms are working but it takes all my courage to go out and walk.  My anxiety is so great.  On top of that winter has come.  It brings with it new worries.  Worries about snow tires, scraping the windshield (which I hate with a passion!) and warming the car.  Before it was driving that caused me some anxiety now it is winter!  Will the car start?  Do I have enough time to let it warm up?  Will the roads be slippery?  Is a snow storm coming?  Will I be caught in a storm?  It goes on and on.  So I do some mindfulness while I wait for my daughter as I am warming up the car.  Now for sure I have to be ready before her so that I have time to warm up the car.  I did this anyway but now I have to do it!  Thank you!  Just writing this down has made me laugh.  Thank you for being there.  It helps writing about it.

I am more conscious of my anxiety.  And what it does to me.  But with courage I face my fear and continue on.  I went for my walk today and afterwards bought myself a mocha latte.  That is my reward when I face my fear.  In addition I bought a cookie with my meager change.  The lady gave me two!  I sat in the mall and ate them as I drank my mocha latte.  I relaxed and looked around me.  Appreciating where I was.  Appreciating.  There was a spot set up for a Remembrance Day celebration.  I appreciated what soldiers, pilots and sailors have done for me.  I appreciated their commitment and service.  There is much to be thankful for.  Thank you for your service.  I took a moment.  Looked out beyond my fear and saw that the world was good.  It helped getting out today.  So I say thank you to myself.  Instead of blocking my fear and succumbing to it I went out and saw that the world was good.  Now I have to notice when I am blocking things out and start working on that.  Slowly I heal.

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Remembrance Day. Lest we forget!

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Miriam’s Art remembers our fallen heroes.  Men and women who fought bravely to protect us and our way of life.  Remember the we are free because of men and women soldiers, pilots and sailors who work in the Army, the Air Force and the Navy.  Remember that the peace that we have to go on in our daily lives comes because of soldiers, pilots and sailors who have dedicated themselves to protecting us and their country.  Remember that the simple act of going out to buy a loaf of bread in safety is due to courageous men and women in the Army, the Air Force and the Navy.  Thanks you to all soldiers, pilots and sailors, men and women alike who protect us and our freedom.  We can never repay you for your dedication and service.  Thank you!

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My healing journey…

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I have taken a step back and have to use my new acquired tools to heal.  Slowly I heal.

I read a book that brought back memories.  Bad memories.  The book was supposed to be a romance.  The book caused anxiety so I had an anxiety attack when I wanted to go walking.  I didn’t go walking that day but the next day I used positive counter statements to decrease the anxiety.  Then I succeeded in going walking.  So I thought of a positive statement that made the fear less real and less probable.  This statement increased my confidence and courage so much that I was able to go walking.  When I got home though I just read.  It was like I wanted to block out any thought.  My anxiety was so great.  So I didn’t paint or draw.  I just read for the rest of the week.  Therefore I have no art to show you today.

I am going to paint a small rat with a bunny for a baby’s change table.  I have to design it and then I’ll be painting it using acrylic paints.  I am going to be a grandmother for the first time.  Oh joy!  A new baby will arrive in December.  Such a miracle!  Such a joy!  My daughter has pet rats and wants her child to get used to rats so I will be painting a rat with a bunny on the change table doors.  It’s my next project.

Slowly I heal.